never to hear the words because i...

longing to hear the words
that could warm and soothe my soul
never to hear the words because i...

assisting to cease a life from existing
life was new and i was young
never to hear the words because i...

life has become a death sentence
after learning positive news
never to hear the words because i...

life after knowing my status
pills a constant reminder
never to hear the words because i...

daddy...i love you

i waited for you

i waited all my life for you

you are the one that life held for me to find
the word love never had meaning until I loved you
before you came into my life I was merely existing
now I am alive to live and alive to love

i waited for you 

i waited for you to make me want to be better
perfect time for me to meet the man the universe made for me
my smile radiates the truth you have created in my life
my love has been held in for so many years
you bring a joy to my life I have never experienced

i waited for you 

i waited with bated breath for you to enter my life
time and space no longer exist when you are with me
our love inspires people to want a love we share
when we are together I feel like i am walking on clouds
joy pure unadulterated joy is how you make me feel

i waited for you 

i waited for you to be in my life i waited for happiness
the love i have for you can barely be contained in my heart
rapture is the only word to describe how your body feels
your deep eyes draw me into them to know our love
i now know the true meaning of be my valentine

i waited for you

breathing

we live our lives day by day searching for our purpose on God’s earth
with each breath of life i know that i am here for a divine purpose
my purpose is yet to be illuminated to me but one day i will know
breathing is essential for life and without breath there is no life

as i gasp for air my life flows through my mind seeking reason for my existence
life is a full of reason and rationale for why I seek to cleave closer to you
our life together through all the ebbs and tides is the main reason we can endure
breathing is essential for life and without breath there is no life

i have to have a deep intention to understand the essence of who i can be
to be more than who i am now i have to take my intention to action to make me whole
my intention can take me to higher levels of authenticity if i am true to self
breathing is essential for life and without breath there is no life

the meaning of life has eluded man for centuries and will continue for centuries more
air and life’s meaning are intimately interwoven into an unbreakable vague bond
i know the true meaning of life will become illuminated when i take my last breath of life
breathing is essential for life and without breath there is no life

i remember laughter

i remember laughter
i remember tears
i remember cavalier times
then I realized my fear

aids stormed into our lives
twenty years ago
people are still dying
some people still don’t know

i remember laughter
i remember tears
i remember good times
then I realized my pain

aids stormed into our lives
twenty years ago
people are still dying
some people still don’t care

i remember laughter
i remember tears
i remember good times
then I lost my friends

aids stormed into our lives
twenty years ago
and people are still dying
no one seems to care
people are still dying

i remember laughter
i remember tears
I still live my reality
that this aids thing is real

i remember laughter
i remember tears
i know too well the sorrow
mourning friends dying in a row

i remember laughter

chant

chant from the heart
chant from your spirit
chant from your very soul
chant from your soul to the gods and have them open your mind

chant to soothe your heart and spirit
chant to find the love that will engulf you
chant to live that life you have always dreamed of and deserve
chant to illuminate the greatness that dwells in your spirit

chant to love like every beat of your heart depends on it
chant to know that you are and that is enough
chant to appreciate the value that is you
chant like your life depends on it

chant
chant
chant

uncomplicated

time stalled when i first held you in my arms
you felt like home when we completely embraced
it was the first time in a very long time…i felt

lips touched and spirits soar into the stratosphere
passionate kiss smolders as we fall from our embrace
heart pierced when my eyes locked into your heart

sharing myself with you was easy and refreshing
trust binds us and cleaves us unto each other
love was easy to say and even easier to hear

loving new

loving someone new
but needing that old love still
loving someone new

want to feel it

wanting and waiting for what is coming next
i sit and look listen and still have not learned
the road ahead is long and curved and i am vexed
why can't i feel what they feel
why can't i see what they see
i want to feel it and know what it is all about
life is short and we are only here for a short time
i want to feel it

 My Book Covers

shared secrets

why did u leave me here all alone

u were the only one that understood me

now i live without understanding

u were the one who shared my secrets

crumbled negatives...images of us

printed paper illustrating the intricacy of our friendship

pictures showing the depth of our commitment

now i am alone wanting and needing to share secrets 

why did u leave me here all alone

u were the only one that understood me

now i live without understanding

u were the one who shared my secrets

opened photo album my tears start to fall

dressed for Halloween u were my man in black

illustrated paper of us together made me glad we met

picture of me illustrate that i have no one to my share secrets

why did u leave me here all alone

u were the only one that understood me

now i live without understanding

u were the one who shared my secrets

scattered pictures tossed around the room

framed pictures of me and my best friend

printed paper with pictures of us

empty frames with no one to share my secrets

why did u leave me here all alone

u were the only one that understood me

now i live without understanding

u were the one who shared my secrets

crumbled negatives...discarded images of us

printed paper illustrating the distance death put on our friendship

pictures showing the emptiness of our commitment

now i am alone not wanting or needing to share secrets 

u had to leave me here all alone

u understood me as i understood u

now i live a life understanding why u left

we shared secrets